Phew...Let's see...

God, many times I have wondered why I even bother to give a title to any of my blog posts. They hardly make any sense and usually, do not even relate much to the contents whatsoever.

Anyway, this blog has been dead for the past 4 months I think. I am even typing this entry using a new notebook. Yup, the other one finally decided to die on me, first went the CD/DVD drive, then the mouse pad and keyboard got cranky and I decided, enough was enough. It was a good buddy, and had accompanied me faithfully throughout my 3 years of poly, BUT, it DIED on me, so well...

Well, on to my life. I am currently counting down to my work expiry day. It should have been the 8th of Dec 2009, but somehow I got hoodwinked/brainwashed/convinced(just choose one you like, I can't decide which is more suitable in my case) to stay for another month. And that decision was actually made after I danced around the mulberry bush with my bosses for an entire month. I will elaborate more should I meet up with those who do not know the full story, so that I won't bore anyone with the same stuff over and over.

Right now, life is not too kind on me, and I am learning to deal with the adult world, so do forgive me if I act childish when I am outside, cos that's my way of letting loose.(I am only 20, cut me some slack!!!)

Oh Christmas is around the corner, so there's time for some enjoyment yet. I need to think of something for my dad since he has hinted he did not get any Christmas present. He's probably thinking of the Crabtree & Everlyn cookies I gave my mum. I really wanted to do up a tree for him but there doesnt seem to be any time. Maybe I should try to do some decorating, provided I can find any ornaments to do so...:)

Haha, that's all for now folks...will update once I find the time to complete the many tasks on my list. Oh ya, to those spamming my tagbox, can just one person contact me on the meetup thing? I am getting confused as to who is the organiser and whom I should reply!!! Thanks!


God Bless....

After 2 months...

Yup, here I am! Hahaha, haven't been updating, and as usual, there's spam in my tagbox. Busy busy busy... and too damn tired!

Been enjoying the rare, 4 days long holidays and I really don't wanna go back to work tomorrow. Oh by the way, Happy B'day, Zijian! I did not forget, just lazy to sms.

Here goes my ranting...

Work is, as I have mentioned, totally exhausting. I can't seem to complete anything on time, and there have been times in the recent week I really wanted to break down and cry. Man, the politics alone can kill sometimes. The way of life in a big corporate firm!

Being the youngest in the entire company has a lot of drawbacks. Conversation topics usually revolve around marriage and children. That's not the bad thing though, the worse is when people leave you out of the conversation because they think you won't understand. At times though, being ignored is perfectly fine with me.

I do cringed, at times, when they call me Xiao Mei or Mei Mei, because it feels like I am being singled out completely.

Oh, I have been getting migraines lately, and I think they aren't going away any time soon.

Haha, the clock is ticking and I have to get to bed soon... or I am so not going to wake tomorrow morning. Will continue again!

First week at work...and to be continued...

Wow, time really flies. My first week of work has gone past and a new one starts tomorrow. Before I go into that though, my apologies to Irene, Zheng Jie and Clayton for not being able to attend last week's dinner. Really had quite a bit to do that day. If there are any other people involved, sorry to you guys too. However, I do wonder if it actually got cancelled, since no one has mentioned it at all after that.

Alright, back to topic.

I am still adjusting to the fact that I am working, not to mention that it's in a real corporate environment. Even though NCS was also a big company, being an intern and an employee is two totally different thing. At NCS, they did not bother to teach me fully since they knew for sure I was going to be leaving in 3 months. So there were stuff I did not really touch on.

Now at Panasonic, I am totally exposed to the real world. The open office concept in the office is so different too. Being able to look directly at my GM when working is quite scary too. Besides the environment, my job scope is one that covers many areas, and there is a mixture of stuff I have learnt only the theory of as well as those I have never ever touched in my entire life.

Even though I am only a temp staff, my colleagues seem to treat me as though I was going to stay for a year. They are nice enough, and I do like the fact that I am expected to ask as many questions I have to in order to get my work done. I sure hope I'll not disappoint any of them and that even though I have no experience, I'll be able to catch on fast enough.

I'm scared still when seeing or approaching any of the department managers or GMs or MD. It will take a while I guess, and being an admin officer means I will surely have to speak to them.

On lighter notes, I have been brought to quite a few places to eat around the office area. Fortunately for me, there is no lack of good food there. I have also found female colleagues to eat with, so I think things has gone pretty smoothly.

I'll blog more soon, it's officially bed time now.

See ya....:)

Food + Friends = Gathering, Calls + Interview = Work

Hehe.. Just for info, I am gonna be recapping the last few days in this post. For graduation, I have passed that already. So that's all.. hehe.. Oh read all the way through, you won't be disappointed.

Okay here goes...

Tuesday, 2nd June 2009
Received a call from an agency regarding a job position as an Admin Officer. Told them to go ahead and send my resume. I believed at that time that I wouldn't get a reply.

Wednesday, 3rd June 2009
Received second call from agency. I was shortlisted for an interview the following day. I agreed and all was set.

Thursday, 4th June 2009
Went for interview at 9.30am at The Concourse. Took a walk down memory lane when heading there since it was the same route I took to the SJAB HQ few years ago. The interview was quite fun and not as bad as I expected. I was interviewed by 2 people.

Friday, 5th June 2009
Received call early in the morning that the company has decided to hire me. I prepared myself but didn't get a call till quite late in the afternoon. Hence, I did not manage to sign my contract that day.

Met my good friends for dinner at Suntec's Astons after that. Had a good time, should do that more often. Hehe...Planning...

Saturday, 6th June 2009
Did not really do much, except heading to Parkway to shop. Bought a top for work there. Then went to the expo John Little sale. Squeezed through the crowd, and bought a pair of shoes, shower scrub and kettle chips. Dinner at White Sands I think.

Sunday, 7th June 2009
Conquered Bukit Timah Hill along with Ben and 2 of his friends. Woke up at 6.30am and was out of the house by 7.05am. Had breakfast at Simei, 2 eggs and 1 slice of bread, along with a cup of Teh O. Reached Bukit Timah Hill at around 8.30am but it was about 9am when we managed to start hiking since there was limited parking lots.

I still can't decide if climbing the stairs or going down the stairs is worse. Going up was exhausting, going down made my knees hurt because of the stones. I was lucky to see a squrriel but did not catch which species it was. Hope I can get a picture next time.

Went for lunch at Siglap after the hike. We had Yong Tou Foo. It was quite nice really and I think I'll go there again sometime soon. Then we all ended up shopping at Parkway. Again. Was fun though, since the girls really loved shopping. Bought another top for work(Ben got it for me). Dinner was takeaway for me, the delicious curry chicken from the food court there.

Monday, 8th June 2009
Went down to Tanjong Pagar to sign my contract with the agency at 3pm. Left at about 4pm, then headed down to the This Fashion at Paya Labar. So many clothes and so cheap. Had alot of fun trying the formal wear. Only bought 2 skirts because I did not want to spent too much. In the end, they were 40% off each and I spent only $34.80 in total. Promise to go back soon, before GSS ends.

Met Ben at Tampines for dinner. Finally, I got to eat Sakae! Haha..refreshing...

Tuesday, 9th June 2009
First day of work. Reported at 8.15am and found myself way too early. HR and Receptionist wasn't even there yet. A kind soul let me into the reception area to sit, then I happened to meet one of my interviewers who waved to me. He told me to wait for awhile for the HR to settle the admin work before I'm handed over to him.

In the midest of our conversation, who should walk in but the MD himself! I scared stiff! Oh, it's a Japanese company, so the upper management are mostly Japanese and politeness is of utmost importance. Not to mention that females are generally supposed to be more submissive in the japanese culture. SCARY!

I am still in the training stage so there wasn't much work yet. My mentor is the same person who interviewed me so I'm still scared of him. Of course, there's the Manager to be afraid of too. I hope everything goes well, since I have to stay for the next 6 months. Oh, they treated me lunch today. So I'll have to find a way to treat them back the next time, probably when I get my first pay. Company politics.

Phew... I need to head to bed....

Okie, it's official!!

Hahaha...What's official? The fact that my dad's not attending my graduation ceremony! Okay, I'll write about that later on.

I'm kinda going bonkers right now.

Anyway, my mum's problems has found its way to me again! Just spent a full hour trying to figure out what the hell is wrong between her and my dad. I have done this like a million times? When are they ever gonna quit this senseless disagreements? NEVER! He came home from the shop with a semi-black face(not literally of course!), muttering something about "A lot of people every sunday...". I could actually smell the foul stench of trouble brewing already!

He only complained a little, and all I got was the gist of it. The matter took a bad turn only when my mum came home. He started his nonsense, and that got my mum to start ranting. Unfortunately for me, I got full blast since he decided to make coffee and then retire to bed early. Hell, he just woke up from a nap! And what was my brother doing? Reading in bed!

Seriously, MEN!

Arghhh...Like I said it took me about an hour to figure out what was bothering her, and the conclusion I drew? She's thinking way too much and too far. She is worrying too much about everything. Haiz...it's so easy to read her, since I inherited that stubborn, think way too much into everything trait from her myself!

And at this point I just feel like starting to laugh out loud. My parents are so comical when they bicker. No wonder I grew up too fast! Ahhh, nevermind, at least this matter still has some chances of being resolved in a diplomatic way. I'll probably be hearing ranting from my dad tomorrow. Pity me.

Okay, back to the graduation thing. Amazingly, the queue in line for my invitation disappeared since two of three who wanted it has declined already.

Oh yeah, just awhile ago, when I learnt that friends have so many relatives going to root for them, I kinda felt pretty depressed. I was in half a mind not to go for the ceremony already. But since the gown has been rented, and clothes bought, I thought I'll just go and enjoy myself! I'll just find someone reliable to get a picture of me wearing the gown on stage!! I could consider framing it then? Besides, I'll be able to find my lecturers after the ceremony and have a proper chat without worrying about my dad being there.

It's just way too childish for me to be upset about no one attending a mundane thing like my graduation. Somehow, this is the way things are in my family and I have long learnt never to let small matters like that affect me too much. So that's that...

And finally... HAHAHA :)

Another ordinary post...

Haha, silly title and silly me. Been feeling utterly useless and bored lately. Weeks seem to be flying pass superly fast and yet, I have had nothing much to do. My routine everyday? Monday-Thursday are normally "sleep at 4am, wake at 12pm or later" days. The occasional messages and calls I receive will wake me earlier, but I usually just go back to sleep feeling irritated after that. Fridays will find me waking slightly earlier as I usually have to work.

So what do I do between my waking time and the next sleeping time? By 3pm, you'll see me sitting in front of my computer, sandwich in hand and coffee on the table, watching the latest dramas that has caught my attention, or simply using Facebook. Then comes dinner, either takeouts or self made.

At least my weekends are better, I get to dress up and go out. Like today. Managed to catch the show "Angels and Demons". Tom Hanks is truly suitable for his once again role of Professor Robert Langdon. I can't think of another actor who could play him. Having read the book only once and about 2 years ago, my muddled mind failed to recall the full story and was still pleasantly shocked at some scenes. Also starring in the show was Ewan McGregor, whom I had admired in "The Island" and "Moulin Rouge"(I feel like listening to Come What May all of a sudden). All in all it was a really good show, and no, it did not make me feel any anger whatsoever. It's just a show, and the book was amazingly written, so that's that.

I'm now awaiting Transformers 2(damn long wait), Terminator and Night at the Museum 2. So many shows to catch and so little time. Amazingly, I am not that into the Harry Potter movies anymore. I have not touched the last two books and don't feel like it anymore. Seems like J.K Rowling made the last two books way too uninteresting. Okay, that review was way overdue, it doesn't make sense anyway.

28th May is graduation, and somehow knowing I'll be stepping into NYP for the last time make me feel weird. Those 3 years of memories will be etched in my mind forever. And speaking of which, I am thinking of holding my dad at knife point, he haven't seem to have decided if he wants to come. Ben has suggested "acting like I am going to break his fishing rods" to make him answer. Haha...they cost at least $1000 each, don't think I can take the risk.

Alright, I'll stop right now, since there's a program I wanna catch on cable on now...

Cheers!!!

Reminder...

Wow, I am so surprised. Those that have been stalking my blog seems to have disappeared. It's so amazing there aren't much comments going around here. Well, perhaps I should just stop blogging, then there would be comments. Haha.. alright, this is just something I would like to add to the post below regarding my "failed" job hunt.

Just a note to whoever is reading, the post below was not meant to discredit the company in any way. In fact, I kind of admire the company's marketing and advertising strategy. For your info, that company is not a scam. It is a legal company with an altogether different approach to sales. That was one reason I did not post any company names nor address.

Furthermore, I believe there are people out there who does appreciate the way things work in the company, so they must have done something right. I only wrote that long entry to caution my pals that however attractive an ad seems to be, do ask and clarify any doubts before wasting time for an interview. Doing a through research beforehand is a good practice too, and if you feel doubtful or sense something wrong, do remind yourself constantly not to be forced or brainwashed into anything you might regret, and get out of it before it gets worse.

I have successfully canceled my interviews with them, and currently praying for God to remain by my side to guide me along.


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A job interview, or two...or not...

Hi guys, hehe...two entries in two days is alot for me, and seems like only one person managed to realize I did the first.

Anyway, I just wanted to share some pretty amazing stuff that went on today, so, please put on your seat belt and hang on for the ride.

I was awaken by a phone call at precisely 9.45am this morning(Wednesday). The moment I saw an unfamiliar number, I jumped out of bed and slapped myself awake before I answered. True to what I had expected, it was a call in response to my application for a job! I was overjoyed! This really nice lady named Mas asked me some questions and told me to go down for an interview tomorrow. We scheduled one at 11.15am. Place? Somewhere in Paya Labar.

Wow, when I checked the place up on the internet, it seemed like a double bonus. I knew the area by sight.

About an hour later, I received a call from yet another unfamiliar number. This time, I jumped up from the floor. HOLy... It was another job interview. This time, it was scheduled 4pm tomorrow. Place? Somewhere in Tanjong Pagar. You can surely imagine my excitement already.

Those weren't the only calls I recieved though. Before lunchtime, I had a grand total of 4 calls. Three of which regarding job interviews and one from Recruit Express asking me for a career consulting session. Man, at that point of time I was sure I had hit a huge Jackpot!!! I was silently joking that GOD actually do read blogs, cos a day after I posted my difficulty in job hunting, I got so many calls.

I happily went and prepared the documents I would need, as well as a nice, neat haircut. Yes, it's shorter again.

Before I went for dinner, I got another call from the ever polite Mas, asking if I was confirmed for tomorrow's interview. Of course I said yes.

After dinner, Ben drove me around the place of the first interview, trying to help me get my bearings in case I got lost. When I got home, I went and searched up both addresses again. However, instead of directions to the places, I found to my horror that I might have walked into a trap worse than death itself.

Apparently, the three companies calling me for interviews were all part of the same UK-based company. An extensive address search linked me to differently named "companies" using the same three addresses. The worse has yet to be mentioned.

• A) This job actually involved direct sales, meaning door to door sales as well as in road shows and such.
• B) No CPF, fully commissioned based salary(so the basic salary of $1800 was fiction).
• C) The posts/complaints I found stated that three people was interviewed together at one go.(This consisted of job seekers holding Diploma, Degree, O'levels or even ITE certs ).
• D) The job seekers usually wait for over 1/2hour before they could go in, and interviews can take up to 1hour with them "brainwashing" you to join.

Imagine my horror realizing this... The beautiful truth has been revealed. As I read on to gather the facts, my stomach felt like I have been punched ten times over. Some nice people also commented that those hired on the spot included those whom, to quote word for word, "could not string even two complete sentences in English properly". Another one commented they, having been convinced to turn up for a second interview, arrived to find a group of people dressed in polo tees and bermudas and slippers waiting with trolleys full of products.

After a discussion with my dad and Ben, I have decided to call up in the morning and cancel both interviews scheduled. The risk is way too much to take, and I am not interested in a fully commissioned, not to mention no CPF job.

I'll stop here as I think everyone is tired after this very long rant. Please do excercise caution when agreeing to interviews, my dear friends..

I'll most probably post something tomorrow so do keep that seat belt on!!

oops..FINALLY...

Did I hit another three-months-one-update again? Hehe..Lets see if I can get any part of my sanity back with this post.

Okay, for starters, the title don't make much sense. Actually, nothing in my life does anymore. Hehe...Well, results have been long out and ya even though I didn't hit my target, I'm happy with it so...frankly, that's the max amount of thought I'm going to put aside for it.

Next major event in the academic part of my life is GRADUATION. It does occupy a greater portion of my mind as there are gowns to order, applications to complete, asking my dad constantly if he wants to attend or not, and so forth. So far, his answers has led to one vision in my head, that of me breezing into the auditorium with a borrowed relative(of Penny's) by my side. Yup, he's still indecisive, but there is a greater than 70% chance of him not attending, so there goes...oh, he keeps asking me the date and I know for a fact he usually writes important dates down on his calendar...(so is this important or not?)...one does wonder at times...

Alright, lets move on. To perhaps the most frustrating and depressing event in my whole entire 20 years of living on this earth. My job hunt. So far, I have uploaded and sent my resume to I don't know how many companies and still have NOT gotten a single reply. Now I get all depressed when someone asks me about it. It just seems so bleak. Even when I'm racing my pet meaninglessly in Pet Society, questions like "Have I sent the resumes correctly?", "Did I make any mistakes in them, like missing address or omission of information that are solely required by the company?", or even "Have I sent them through the correct way?".

No no, don't worry, I'm not on the verge of a nervous breakdown. It's just the way I am. I need to always double check because I have a tendency to be careless.

Hehe, my dad has mentioned a trip to Hong Kong and I'm currently hoping to plan one to Malacca as well. Hence, I need information regarding Hong Kong and Malacca, like where to shop, hotels to stay in or places I should definitely visit and so on, so if anyone has any good information please do tell me! It would be greatly appreciated!! By the way, Malacca's where I can trace my heritage as well as ancestors and a trip there would be really meaningful to me, so if I can't go to Hong Kong for some reason, I do hope to at least go there..

Anyway, I hope the job market will improve soon. And yes of course, that I'll get at least two or three good replies soon. Hehe... gotta go..next entry will hopefully be less depressing...:)




xxxxxxxxxxx Love ya all!! xxxxxxxxxxx

For you my dear...

Haha, this is about the next two days, 14th Feb and 15th Feb...and is posted for my hubby...(happy? hehe...)

14th Feb is a day most people should know right? Yup, it's Valentine's Day...

Woke up at 11am, and rushed to get ready to go out with my dear hubby... We had planned to catch the movie, "Curious Case of Benjamin Button" few days prior to Valentine at Grand Cathay. Here comes the funny bit, we both had no inkling if Grand Cathay was at the Cathay. Really, places in Singapore are named quite oddly... We took a gamble anyway, and arrived in The Cathay with loads of time to spare.

Lunch was one of the best I had in a long time with my hubby...a mixture of XXL fried chicken chop, Sausage crepe and Oyster mee sua from Shihlin Street snacks, and Superior Kung Fu Iced Milk Tea. Yes, I hear sniggers regarding the name, it kind of wowed me too...maybe there really was Kung Fu involved?

Next was the movie, which I really enjoyed tremendously. It made me feel many different emotions... How could one fall in love with someone you know would gradually get younger as you got older, live with him, and have a child, then carry him as a baby in your arms in your old age? Well, that is love for you... love that did not have a beginning nor end, because one's end was also one's beginning... and vice versa...

After that, we went to Suntec. We paid a visit to the arcade, and man, the amount of couples there were amazing... not to mention that most were clutching plushies caught from the machines.

I got one TOOOOOOO!!! haha... Then came dinner at SOUPerlicious....

Beef Goulash soup, Potato Salad, Macaroni Salad and Iced Peach Tea

Very very healthy and light dinner...

15th Feb

Met my hubby at 3pm for lunch + dinner...
We went to Parkway and and had dinner at Ichiban, durian ice cream from Scoop(can I please have another??) and picked a cake from SwissBake. It was champange something... haha...ALCOHOL!!





Above is the combination of Valentine and birthday gifts my hubby gave me...

Thank you my hubby, I fully appreciate everything that you have done...nothing would have worked if it weren't for you... Love you, love you, love you!! Hehe...there's that smile u love...


Just for you...

Here goes... for 13th Feb 2009

Yo!!! Haha.. I promised to blog again soon didn't I? So ya, here goes...

First of all though, the clock is turned back to only about 4 days ago, 'cause things that have happened those days need some standing space in my blog.

Friday, 13th Feb 2009 was the last day of my FYPJ, also the last day of school for me. Amazing huh, walking around school certainly felt different that day. For starters, my lab mates came out with the idea of ordering pizza to lock our memories together forever. We invited our supervisors and guess what, to our embarrassment, there wasn't enough FOOOOOD!! Not to mention that the pizza was late! Okay, to be honest, he was on time, we ordered late...

Anyway, these things do happen, and at least there was still food! Blame Mr Cheong for counting the pizzas, but I appreciate his help in taking the first few slices of pizza! It made us feel loads better... come to think of it, Mr Wagio too, or was it he was too hungry to care?..hmmm...err, for pics of the celebration, please take a look at Penny's blog, it houses all the pics since it was her camera. The music she added when coupled with the pics, can make one sob no end. I have already soaked a whole towel! (it has nothing to do with me "sleeping" in most of the photos!)...I really miss everyone....

Well, you guys see the change in colour here? It marks the next chapter... Shin Yi's and my b'day celebration!! It was on the same day. We went to the porridge steamboat at AMK. For $15 per pax, it wasn't that bad... thing was we didn't see a single grain in the supposed porridge pot! Haha, we were told to stir it constantly but it didn't seem to work. There was a slight burning smell though...

However, the most important thing was I had all my friends there with me that day! These are people I have known through the phase of my entire poly life! Friends I knew since Year 1(Chen Sheng, Shin Yi, Xiao Wei, Ken, Jing Rong...), Year 3(Penny, Clarence, Clayton, Zheng Jie, Zijian...).......sobs..





One wonders when we will do this again... oh crap..the water tap came loose again... keke...on brighter notes...the presents!!




The above from Chen Sheng, Penny, Xiao Wei, Clarence, Ken, Jing Rong

The above from Clayton, Zheng Jie, Zijian

I really really love the presents guys...and every single one of you too!! Thank you all for the fun time we had that night, for being my friend all this time, for everything else... We must find time to have more dinners and gatherings!! I am fervently hoping for the chalet we never seem to be able to plan......


Here's to the beginning of a new chapter for all of us, CHEERS!

Surprise Surprise...

Hello hello...yes yes, been far far too long since the last entry. Seems like the LOLs in my tag boxy has stopped. Just a note: This is only a brief update, I'll turn back the clock to past events in my next entry. Hehe..

Well, anyway, I have long ago finished my IPP and on the verge of completing FYPJ. Just another week more and I'll say goodbye to NYP. It's more than a little scary to think of it now that the prospect of graduation is closer. Even when rushing out work for my project, a little voice in the back of my head will remind me that I have to look for a job soon. Haiz, I need to take things in stride.

Alright, I know this entry is extremely disappointing(by my own standards), but I'll be updating soon, when I finish off my jobs at hand. Oh ya, just celebrated Clarence's birthday last friday. It was fun and the dinner was quite good considering the fact that it was our last minute backup plan. Haha..will elaborate more..

NITEZZZZ...>>>>>>>>>>

Just an update...

Hi there, haven't blogged for a while already.

Olympics officially ended the day before. Time seems to past really fast these days. I already have two paper down, one more left to conquer before I take a short break before IPP. Still scared at the thought of it but then, come what may!

Been feeling a little off again, with trying to get motivation to study for my exams and coordinating the chalet at the same time. At least the chalet problem is more or less solved, and the 7th month issues were expected. Hopefully there will be enough people left over to make it a fun one. There's some other matter weighing me as well, but I think since it's a friend's problem, I shouldn't carry the burden myself. Praying that God will kindly help my friend resolve it and not let it explode further.

Looking forward to the lunch feast this Wednesday. At least we'll have something to celebrate the end of our exams. See you guys! Study hard and smart, good luck to all...Let us move forward together!!


GOD BLESS>>>>>>

HSM ICE TOUR!!!

08/08/08!!

Went to watch HSM Ice Tour with Ben at expo tonight!!! Hehe, it was really really exciting. He reached my house around 6pm and drove us there. Reached there about 6.20pm. We shouldn’t have worried we would not be able to find the place because the first thought I had was “Just follow the kids!” There sure was many around! We decided to get some food at the “Munchy Cafe” there since we were early.

After a meal of chicken sausage, 4 fishballs, a plate of fries and chicken pie, we went to walk around a little. The many booths outside the hall were filled with souvenirs. We decided on the cotton candy in the end.

I was a little shocked at the price though, it cost $14 with a plastic hat included. Besides this, there were also shirts, some toys, flags bearing the “wildcats” logo, popcorn and some crushed ice drinks available. I think the flags and crushed ice drinks were more worth the money since they can be kept. I have my little plastic hat though, so it’s fine!

We made our way into the hall and our seats. Took pictures and started on the cotton candy since we had like at least 15mins. I think I really got high on it. There were 4 balls of it!! SUGAR HIGH!!

ACT 1 consisted of scenes from HSM 1, with an intro of all the characters. I must say, the ice skater playing Sharpay really resembled Ashley Tisdale. I was totally wowed by the skaters! One of the scene, that of Troy and Gabrielle singing “Breaking Free” was breathtaking. “Gabrielle” had a solo part where she twirled in the air. Man, I really admire what they can do in their skates.

One memorable part was the “Call Backs” scene where 3 scenes were going on at the same time. The skaters practically froze when it was the turn of another part of the stage. Another was the slow motion illuminated basketball. That really made us sit up because everyone thought it was really FLOATING!!

ACT 2 was equally entertaining. Consisted of scenes from HSM 2. Again, I stared in awe as the skaters leaped into the air and spun on the ice. There was a scene where Troy’s shirt was literally torn off him!! Adults in the audience wolf whistled!! When Troy did his solo, “Bet on It”, I thought it really beautiful! He was graceful and still had that manly stance! Of the skaters, the 3 leads, Sharpay, Gabrielle and Troy had the most difficult routines. I really loved watching them.

A little girl sitting behind us was really into it. According to Ben, she knew every single song that was played. I was tempted to take a photo with her, she was a star herself!!

We ended the night with supper at Xin Wang at White Sands.

God, I really had a wonderful night!! Thank you Ben, for your company!

GOD BLESS!!!

What does the near future hold...?

Just some thoughts I felt like sharing. Hehe, been thinking a lot about my IPP lately. Like how I am going to be able to make it in time to work every morning for three whole months. "Lucky" me got attached to NCS, which is at Ang Mo Kio. Haha, of course, some would remark that I have been going to school there for so long, there's really nothing to complain about. True, but going to school is way different. This is work, I cannot afford to be late and it seems there's only one route I can take to get there.

I wonder if this is another of God's test. I can feel butterflies in my stomach at the mere thought of this attachment. A comforting thought is that I have another classmate with me. But I know it's still gonna be scary for me. There's also one other thing: ATTIRE. I sure hope they will brief us on the rules they have. I know guys would not fret about this because their formal is just that, FORMAL. We girls however, have certain rules to abide.

There's this rule about only skirts allowed for females. My mum did warn me I have to invest in some skirts quick. Please do not think I am superficial, I just want to get these simple things over and done with, so I will be able to concentrate on the work involve. I am such a klutz, God knows how much I can botch things if I am unprepared. I hope I will be able to fit in and make friends as well.

Hell, I'm going to miss lunch breaks with Penny, Clarence, Clayton, Zheng Jie and Zi Jian. (yes, ladies first, then alphabetical order.) To you all, I have really enjoyed your company these past months and I really feel like crying already. You must really think I am mad. Hehe. Can't help it, really happy that I got to know all of you. Don't laugh at me.

I think I'm going to feel it more when I realise two of you are about 15mins walk away from me. Please do not forget me. LOLX.

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On happier notes, I finally have one of the necklaces I wanted!! The credit goes to Ben, who took the time and effort to order it from UK. I cannot thank you enough. I really did not expect it. Here, I am smiling that smile you wanted. But I also have tears in my eyes, and I think you know why. I am still thinking of what to wear it with. Don't worry, I have decided to wear it for you first. Just so you know, I am looking forward to the HSM ice tour!!

Oh for those who don't know which one, it's the one with the two dragons and red heart. The red heart really sparkles when a light shines through it!! Man, I am so mesmerized, I cannot believe it's mine. THANK YOU many many times over!!!

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Here, I am gonna jump topic again. My exams are around the corner. The last ones gracing my poly years actually. I have like three major ones, and one minor test(Com skills) the coming Wednesday. Going to be meeting Penny tomorrow to study for that.

Then it's IT Services and Management, which sucks because we got the most sleepy time slot: 12.30pm-2.30pm. Man, who sits for exams at that time? Not to mention that we have to walk all the way to the sports hall. And yes, it's on a dreaded Monday!! Perhaps a morning of studying in North canteen is in order. This is followed by Systems Integration two days later, at the joyful time slot: 9.00am-11am, and then IT Security a full week later at the same time slot.

Wow, that looked like one crappy paragraph.

Oh ya, now i finally remember what made me want to blog in the first place. Was looking through this year class photos and felt tears welling up. Hell, I really seem sentimental eh. (or emotional la)

Maybe it's because looking at the class photos brought memories back to the day it was taken, and yes, remembering how everyone was kind enough to stay back for Ee Ling draws another smile. My eyes can't help wandering to a certain spot though. Oh, the picture taken with Penny is stuck in my mind as well.

I think I'm going to end here. Or I'll really burst into tears. Hehe, too many things are blurry in the near future, and everyone of us needs to face them bravely. Yes, that one thing is on my mind constantly. No matter what I do, I cannot get rid of it.


GOD BLESS!!

Let one's heart be one's guide...

Dizzy Dorama...

Hi there!

This is going to be a short one I guess.

Finally finished the last test for the week today. Think I'll take a break today and continue my citect tomorrow.

Yesterday was my Enterprise Networking presentation and a very interesting thing happened. I nearly fainted when it was my turn to present! I was already a little dizzy at the start of the presentation(actually, right from the morning). A friend commented my voice was shaky, was I really, I wonder? I think I honestly scared a pretty good lot of people.

I really want to thank those who were concerned for me. Thank you for being there to support me as well. It's really nice when I know there are those who really care and yes, Penny, thank you for your $0.70 milo and the heavy application of medical oil on my temples. LOLX!

I am taking this incident as a wake up call. I haven't been so weak for more than a year already, and it kinda scare me a little. Not having proper sleep, not eating correctly and not drinking enough water ain't healthy. Add in stress and unbalanced emotions and you'll get a very disastrous ending.

Something funny I learnt though, Clarence said he practically had to shout into Mr Lam's ear to inform him I "fainted". LOLX, I laughed my head off hearing that. So the whole concept of marking a presentation was not to pay attention.

Okie, blog soon...

God Bless!

Giving Up...?

Geraldine Geraldine Geraldine, I am so disappointed in you!!!

YES, I am berating myself and hitting my head against the wall repeatedly. I don't want to whine, but I really don't know what to do anymore. What has happened to my resolves, my determination, my grades, EVERYTHING?

Just got my ITIL over and done with. Very very disappointed in myself. Only scored 75%. Yes, I passed, but it's a bloody low score. That grade when I really studied even the lecture slides? Bloody damn tired of looking into the mirror and seeing a failure staring back at me. If only I could turn back time! I still have a presentation on Monday and a test on Tuesday to clear.

Honestly, there's not enough time left. And it's all my own damn bloody fault!

Geraldine, you need to buck up and move forward, stop looking back! (this is the stronger part of me talking )

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There's another matter as well. One that has driven my sanity out of me completely. And I cannot do a thing about it!!! I hate mentioning it anymore, because everyone is sick of it, and no one believes anything good will come out of it. Thank you to the person who revealed a certain fact to me. Another ask me if I am giving up. I DON'T KNOW!

The mind is trying to win the heart, to quell its stupid desires and hopes. But it doesn't seem strong enough. Why does it always come to something like this?Tired tired tired of the facade I have been portraying, the seemingly indifference to everything.

A challenge to a fight for something with no future, how stupid am I? A foolish foolish foolish person, who has lost her way. There's no one to hear her cries of help and she knows it. At this instance, she knows she has no more power left and the end is near. Is this my answer then, to give up? To keep it buried forever, never to see light again, even the tiniest thoughts, and burning desires?

Maybe.

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I'm stopping the above ranting. I need to focus focus focus. I know my tears are coming soon, wish there's someone I can talk to right now. But I'm left with myself, I guess. There's really no one I trust enough anymore.

Yes, I spent the entire day walking around in a daze, wondering what else can go wrong and how much more I can take. Even playing pool made me tired, and eating was a chore. I wanted very much to curl up into a ball in a corner somewhere, to just forget everything. Somehow, I did not want to be alone even so. My friends surrounded me, but I felt so much loneliness still, and I looked at them as I would when watching a foreign-language film, just watching, not really taking anything said in.

Now, I'm going to really take on my studies, there's no time machine available. I have chosen this path, and I need to walk on even if I have to bite my lips till they bleed and ball my fists till my nails dig hard and leave marks on my palms. I'm sure everyone has their fair share of problems. So maybe my problem is mundane in other people's eyes. Time to put the shield back on, straighten my shoulders, steel my back and face this cruel world. Someday, somewhere, I'll find my salvation. Till then, there's not much I can do but accept everything thrown my way.

God Bless,

and here goes "Tian Yi" by Andy Lau....HAHA!!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

What is Right and what is Wrong?

Bugger bugger bugger.

A message to all: Please leave a proper name in your Tags. I don't know who the hell you are if you don't do that and it pisses me off.

Bugger bugger bugger.

I have been so tired lately. Have no idea what is draining all my energy exactly though. Perhaps it's the fact that I still have so many unfinished work. My dreams have been haunted by darkness lately. I think my eyebags are definitely staying put for say, another year at least.

Just got news on Monday that I am starting attachment first. Damn, I really wanted FYPJ first. Perhaps the only comfort is that a few close friends are taking the same path.

On the same day, I received news that me, along with a few others had to take our ITIL certification exams outside school. That was real bad news for us. "Lucky" me got a time slot 12.15pm this Friday, at Ngee Ann City. That was the closest location to my home. It just gets better and better doesn't it? Penny did mention she would accompany me if she was in a good mood, so I'll just keep my fingers crossed. Someone did mention he would go down to give support, but I wonder if he'll even remember. He does suffer from STM you know. Oh, I need to make sure I get on the right lift as well. ARGH!!

So far, there's 2 person who have failed and 1 that have scored 100% for it. Crossing my fingers again. Wonder what to expect for the next batch. Praying for Penny, not only to pass, but to get at least 90%. Yes dear god, I am that greedy.

Emotions are in another whirlpool. They seem to be like multiple roller coaster rides. Twirling here and there, making my heart race, making me fear that I'll get myself hurt anytime, as well as keeping me really numb as I scream out loud.

I am such a hopeless case. Is it better for one to foolishly believe in or knowingly hope for something? This question will be left unanswered I guess. I don't even know what the hell I want anymore. Only thing I can be sure of is to get the cert exam over and done with and study for my upcoming exams. I HAVE TO GET THE CERT NO MATTER WHAT. It costs a hefty $267.

Okie, will say good night for now. Haiz, whatever will be will be.

GOD BLESS!!oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Whirlpool...

I AM SO SCREWED!!!

Yes, do not chide me for starting off with that. This is my blog, I'm free to write what I like. Feeling very very down.

First off, I have a test tomorrow and I am still frantically studying for it. This is one I cannot afford to fail. No way. If I get another F, I'll happily be repeating my module next semester. Haiz, what a drag my life is.

Listening to Andy Lau's "Tian Yi(Fate)" is so not helping. Fate is one thing that have been standing in my way for a long long time. It has been intervening in every goddamn aspect of my miserable life and I am getting sick of it. Arghh...I am positively raving mad right now.

God, when will I ever truly have my prayers answered? I really don't enjoy experiencing that again and again. Can I please have more helpful hints? Please please please, begging on my knees already.

On happier notes, I have been trying very desperately to get certain types of jewelery. Something along this line:





Hopefully the sellers of these necklaces will not sue me for posting this. I shall add the link so I can promote their webby. (http://www.gothicstyle.co.uk/ )

There you have it. They have a really cool collection available. Don't worry people, I am no goth chick (at this instance, check my cbox, there's sure to be a comment) I just love happen to adore snakes and dragons. They are fantastic creatures and I do own a snake ring that I love to bits. Wish I can widen my collection soon. I think the gems added to the designs make them even more desirable. Yes, I PREFER the red gems.

Hehe, I feel so much better letting some steam off. Let me get back to my studying.

TMLooooolaaaaWILLooooBEoooooAweeeeeeBETTERooooooDAYweeeee!!!Oooooooo


LOLX GOD BLESS!!..................................................................

Nervous...

Hi there, it's me again. Didn't actually plan to blog. Just want to let off some steam. Tomorrow's my Mock Interview for Com Skills and hell I'm worried. Ok, the rest of my teammates are guys and it seems they can just strut in and preen their feathers. I wonder when this matter with my nerves is gonna end. I can stand my ground dealing with difficult customers and stuff. But where is my courage when it comes to this kind of situations? It's not even a real interview. Man, I'm turning all weird.

God, if you are listening, please let me be calm and prepared tomorrow. There's nothing I should be afraid of and I'm just freaking out for nothing.

Hehe, that helped. I don't think I really have much to blog about. Oh ya, helped out at the carnival at St Patrick's on Saturday. Quite fun really. Think my mum enjoyed the time out of the shop as well.

Got to get to bed ready, need to wake at 4am to try practicing the questions . Will probably blog soon.

OOOOOoooooooooooooooooooLove Is In Everyone's Heart, Feel It and Embrace ItoooOOOO